Sunday, March 05, 2006

Love

No - I'm not in love - No I'm not dating anyone that should make any of you think I'm in love. No I didn't fall out of love, no I'm not mad at anyone because of love, no there's no drama or actual reason as to why I posted this. I just found this really great saying/quote/paragraph about love and wanted to post it because I know I'VE felt like this before, so I'm sure you all have too...
Have you ever been in love? Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...
You give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it. But you give it to them anyway. They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like "maybe we should just be friends" turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.

1 comment:

John said...

I've definately been there.. and had that done.. and probably done that a time or two to people.. I hurts badly.. but yet it is a driving force within us all, trying to find that connection with someone beyond that of purely platonic.. Someone to share our life with and their's with us.

In the end, it is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all. Now it is time for me to take some of my own medicine and start practicing what I preach.