Sunday, January 20, 2008

you won

you won

you won the date

you won the conversation

you won

you won my heart

you won my love

you won

you won my life

you won... me

you won

you won the fight

you still had my heart

you won the next fight

you still had my heart

you won the last fight

you still had my heart

you won

you won your freedom

you won your independence

you won the game

and you kept a piece of me

and i HATE that you have it

i hate that i let you win it

i hate that i gave it to you

but be happy

because you won

you won the game you were playing

too bad i didn't know it was a game

but you won anyway

so that's all that matters right?

hope you're happy

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

All for this...

I sort of want to get married.... just because I want to do this :)

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

Pet Wake Up Call

I can only imagine Sally like this when she's hungry in the morning... THIS is why I leave food/water in my room!

Sunday, January 06, 2008

Baby Madeline Update

So I'm not filling this blog with lots of Baby Madeline stuff - although I would love to - if you want to watch her progress and see the "goings on" of my brother's family - they have a blog set up. I think their intention is to keep it as a way to update everyone on all the events in their life - but I'm pretty confident right now the blog is going to be consumed by Madeline! Their latest post has a video - its pretty cute!!

Saturday, January 05, 2008

Eyes Open!

Madeline Rose Phillips

This is why I decided in a matter of hours to get on a plane and head to Kansas City!! I wasn't able to see Charlie or Kate when they were in the hospital - and had to meet both of them days and months after they were born, so to meet Madeline THE DAY she was born was absolutely amazing!!

my compass

you were the magnet in my compass

you didn't provide the direction yourself

but you helped the many aspects of my own compass

you helped me with the direction

and now i'm just spinning in circles

because you took that magnet away

you took away an aid to helping me with direction

and it just happens to be a pretty important one

and you took it from me

why did i give it to you?

why did i trust you enough?

why did i think you could handle it?

why did i think you were worthy to have that much influence on my life?

why did i give you that much control?

you aren't worthy of that

you aren't capable of that

you aren't that reliable

you aren't that dependable

why did i think you were?

why did i give you that magnet?

because now i'm spinning in circles

looking for direction

wanting you to be part of it again

not because of you

but because it was comfortable

because it wasn't intimidating

because it wasn't daunting

but it wasn't YOU that provided those things

you NEVER provided me with that much

you never provided me with direction

you never provided me with guidance

you were just there

it was really me

that provided that for both of us

so now its up to me again

its up to me

because i am reliable

because i am dependable

because i am capable

its up to me

i will provide my own direction

its up to me