you deprived me of it
for so long
and not only were you not giving any attention to me
you were taking all that i was offering
so i was doubly deprived
because i wasn't even giving enough attention to myself
i wasn't giving enough attention to who i am
to remembering who i want to be
to acting on the type of person i want to be
to shaping my life the way i hope it should be
and now its affecting everything
trying to figuring out who i am after this large part of what i thought was my life is gone
trying to figure out why you still have ANY influence on my life even though i've pushed you out
trying to figure out why you still affect my life when i so desperately hope you wouldn't
and to compound this
to compound my search to again find me, my way, and whats important to me
i'm craving something that you deprived me of
i'm craving something that you kept from me
and my addiction to something that you neglected to give me is driving me
is driving my actions now
and driving who i am now
is driving how i've acted
and so
because of this
you still continue to affect my life
you still have influence over me
and i hate that
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